SECRET REPORTS

DAY 8: ROXAS -
"Seems like we're getting new members very day. No. XIII was a boy, Roxas. Now we've got a No. XIV, Xion.

Today's mission was to show Roxas the ropes. I feel like they've had me babysitting him since he got here. He's not a bad kid, but he's spacey. Good fighter, though. At least I won't be bored."

DAY 17: THIS KID? -
"Another mission with Roxas today. Is he seriously my responsibility? At least he's starting to talk like a normal person. Maybe that means his memory's coming back.

Still, this kid's supposed to be the Keyblade master's Nobody? I don't see it."

DAY 22: CASTLE OBLIVION -
"They pushed up the CO plan. Our little hero with the key must've made a move.

Me and his Nobody have been meeting up for ice cream the last few days. Not the best conversationalist, but at least he's mastered a few facial features besides "doom" and "gloom".

I told him about C.O., but he didn't seem to follow. Guess that's understandable."

DAY 28: DEALING WITH THE TRAITOR -
"I've uncovered most of what I need to know about the Replica Program, but where's the other one? I can't find any trace of it.

... Vexen was caught in the middle. Pitiable, but unavoidable. I could not risk his Program falling into their hands.

Of greater concern are the traitors. Not the obvious turncoats, but the ones who will get in his and my way. The Keyblade master is not our enemy."

DAY 52: ANOTHER MISSION -
"I've lost track of the Keyblade master and the other intruders. I'm the only one left in the castle. Everybody else has been destroyed. My orders were to end the traitors, but I think by this point, I fit that bill better than anybody.

There's one last thing I need to look into while I'm here."

DAY 72: HUMAN -
"The longer you know someone, the less you need to speak in clear terms. Everything gets across with a wink and a nudge, a little reading between the lines...

When it comes to what befell our late comrades at Castle Oblivion, ambiguity suits me just fine.

But the Keyblade master and Roxas come out and say every little thing that comes to mind. Maybe that's human, or maybe they're just special."

DAY 74: XION'S FACE -
"Honestly, I never got why Roxas was so crazy about Xion. I know they both joined up around the same time, and they're both rookies, but how do you get close to somebody who hides their face all the time?

Well, I saw it today. All of a sudden, No XIV up and takes off... her hood. Xion is a girl, and she looks just like Namine."

DAY 96: FRIENDS -
"Xion regained her ability to wield the Keyblade. I don't know how or why. Maybe there's more to the Keyblade master they're not telling me about.

I feel like I've been spending more time talking to Roxas and Xion lately than my old friend, Saïx. This has to have been what it was like, friendship."

DAY 118: YOU CHANGED, NOT ME -
"Talking to Roxas and Xion always brings back memories of my human life, back when I was a kid. It's a weird sensation.

I ought to be able to share all this with Saïx, but I just don't feel like it anymore. It's strange, but I'm content with just missing what's gone.

I'm not the one who changed. You did."

DAY 152: LIKE A REAL PERSON -
"Roxas and Xion must have had it out over something. Knowing them, it's something dumb, but still.

Watching them, it's like they're human. It's messing with my head.

I kind of wonder if Roxas understood all that about the wrong buttons.I get the sense a lot of it went right over his head."

DAY 172: MEANING BEHIND THE WORDS -
"There has to be something to what Saïx said. Why isn't Xion qualified to be one of us? He said to just look at her, but at what? The fact that she looks like Namine?

Xion and Namine must be connected. Whose Nobody is Xion, anyway? What is Saïx hiding?"

DAY 194: THE REPLICA -
"I thought I'd never see the word "Replica" again. Any rational man would realize the Riku Replica was not likely unique, but I'm the only one in the Organization who knew of his exceptional copying functionality, and that he ultimately formed a sense of self. The fact that I knew all that and still never noticed the truth about Xion speaks to how remarkable a Replica she must be.

But my questions remain unanswered. Who is she a Replica of? Namine? Kairi? Or perhaps someone entirely different? Why did the Orgnaization admit her into this membership? And why would such a fine Replica fall unconscious or sporadically lose its command of the Keyblade?"

DAY 224: XION -
"Even if Xion is a Replica - a puppet - she's still Xion. I understand that in my head, but how do I interact with her now? Riku-Replica was just a tool, but I can't just use Xion. No, I was wrong to have just used Riku-Replica in the first place. How is a man-made puppet any less worthy than a Nobody that was never meant to exist at all?

They're both ambiguous. Tenuous at best. And she's my friend. Even if neither of us should exist, that doesn't invalidate the bonds we form. Next break we get, I told her we'd all go to the beach. I hope we get the chance. Our little summer vacation. I know if we can get together and laugh about stupid stuff, this nagging doubt will go away."

DAY 276: BEHIND THE TRUTH -
"Xion is gone. Roxas still doesn't know anything, but Xion found out. That's why I need to find her. We don't have hearts, so we accept the facts we're given as the truth. But something far more important lies behind that truth. Saïx would laugh at people with no hearts calling one another friends, but that doesn't make it not so.

As the Nobody of the hero of the Keyblade and the Replica of that Nobody, these two are special. Unique in every since of the word. But that doesn't change the fact that we're friends. Nothing will. Got it memorized, Xion?"

DAY 297: CONTACT WITH RIKU -
"The man they're calling the imposter, that fake Organization member? It's Riku. Roxas could very well remember that, somewhere deep in his memories. Still, it's too soon to report this. I need to know why Xion was with him first.If she's siding with the hero. it could easily mean her erasure. What are you planning to do, Xion?"

DAY 299: THE VALUE OF A LIE -
"Roxas doesn't trust me after the whole Xion incident, but I can't tell him the truth yet. So I keep lying. It's no big deal when you're a Nobody. There's no guilt, no feeling at all. So why does it still sting, just a little, when I lie to him? All my dealings with Roxas give me this bizzare illusion of humanity."

DAY 301: XION OR ROXAS? -
"Xion is burning through missions at full tilt. She seems frantic. Why, I don't know. And speaking of, I still don't know what to say to Roxas. Even without my orders from Saïx, I'd do anything to stop Roxas from being erased. I just don't know if I can stand by and let that happen to Xion, either."

DAY 353: A FUTURE THAT NEVER WAS -
"I couldn't tell Xion she was wrong, and I can't bring myself to end her. But it's either that, or I have to erase Roxas. There's no future where the three of us can sit around and eat ice cream. I know Roxas will never understand. I don't want to acknowledge it myself."

DAY 357: TO MY BEST FRIEND -
"Roxas left. It's so like him to just leave that WINNER ice cream stick behind. Come tomorrow, I'll probably get the order to hunt him down, but leaving that here makes it feel so permanent. I wish the three of us - three? No. That the two of us could share some ice cream again someday. That's what it is to be friends."

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