JOURNAL ENTRIESDAY 8: ENTRY 2 -
"Axel and I went to Twilight Town today. He taught me a lot.
Before we RTC'd (Returned To the Castle) we swung by the clock tower and had some sea-salt ice cream. Axel called it the "icing on the cake" after a successful mission. Well, except there was no cake---just the ice cream. I don't know what to write in this thing!"
DAY 14: ENTRY 4 -
"Me and Axel went on a mission to Twilight Town. Afterwards, we went and had ice cream again up on the clock tower.
He said friends do stuff like that. Or they laugh together. So does that mean me and him are friends?"
DAY 22: ENTRY 6 -
"Axel is going to some place called Castle Oblivion. He told me because we're friends.
He had to go home early to get ready, and after he left I noticed the word WINNER on my ice cream stick. I wonder what I won... I'll ask him when I see him tomorrow."
DAY 51: ANNIHILATED -
"It sounds like the worst has come to pass: the whole C.O. team, wiped from existence. It's hard to come to grips with the idea that Axel is gone. I feel...choked up? I don't know what you'd call it. I've never had this kind of sensation.
I went up to the clock tower to have ice cream, but nobody else showed up."
DAY 71: AXELS BACK -
"After work, Axel turned up. Just like that, out of nowhere. I didn't know what to say. I thought we'd lost him for good.
We went up to the clock tower and talked for a while. I told him about Xion.
The choked-up sensation has gone away."
DAY 72: ICE CREAM WITH AXEL -
"Me and Axel went to Agrabah. He seems different now that he's back from C.O. Ice cream was just the two of us today.
I wonder when me and Axel and Xion will all get to have ice cream together."
DAY 75: INSEPARABLE -
"Me and Xion are working together now. The Genie we met in Agrabah said he and his friend Al are "inseparable." Axel told us best friends can be inseparable even if they're not always together, but it sounded like he wasn't too sure about it himself.
I thought Axel knew everything. Oh well...
That reminds me, those weird pictures flashed through my head again while I was in Agrabah. The guy in red I wrote about before... Has he been to Agrabah or something?"
DAY 97: OUR PLACE -
"Every day, after work, the three of us have been going to our place on top of the clock tower to have ice cream. We don't talk about much, but I wouldn't miss these conversations for the world. I wonder if Axel and Xion feel the same way...
Do the other Organization members have their own routines? It's hard to picture."
DAY 118: VACATION -
"Today was my first vacation ever. I didn't know what to do with it. Axel said to do what I like, but all I like is having ice cream with my friends---so that's what I ended up doing.
Axel leaves tomorrow for some kind of mission. Which reminds me---I still haven't given him the WINNER stick yet."
DAY 149: WINNER -
"Today's mission took me to a new world. It was a weird place. I was up on the clock tower afterwards when Axel turned up after being away forever. He said he finished that long mission. But this time Xion didn't show.
I was gonna give Axel that WINNER stick, but I should wait until I get another one. It wouldn't be fair to leave Xion out."
DAY 150: TOO PRECIOUS TO LOSE -
"Xion didn't come to the clock tower again today. She and Saïx had some kind of argument.
Axel and I talked for a while about the things we can't bear to lose. Axel thinks that for Nobodies, it's our pasts, because that's all we have to remember the pain of losing something. I don't remember my past, but the idea of losing the present---Axel or Xion---scares me."
DAY 153: NO TASTE FOR IT -
"It's hard spending time with Xion, and Axel seems busy, too. I've been having ice cream alone, but it's just not the same. All I taste is the salt, and my hands get all sticky. It's like I'm going through the motions of eating it just so I can throw the stick out and get on with life. I must've had about a hundred of these things, and I still haven't found another WINNER.
I never did find a way to ask Xion about the pictures that go through my head. I don't really know what to do about anything right now."
DAY 171: WHAT'S LOVE? -
"On my mission at Beast's Castle, Xaldin told me about "love" and the special power it has over people.
I tried to ask Axel about it, but his explanation didn't make any sense to me. Every time I ask him about this kind of thing, he tells me I need a heart to understand. It's like he's dodging the questions."
DAY 193: BEST FRIENDS -
"Xion's awake now. The three of us were gonna go get some ice cream after our mission, but she passed out again, so we had to take her home.
I talked with Axel in her room until she woke up. He said the three of us were best friends---inseparable."
DAY 194: EVEN FAR APART -
"We've all started going back to our usual spot after work. Sometimes Axel and Xion are there waiting for me, other times I get there first.
Things have gotten busier for us, so we can't all make it every day. But even if they're not there, at least now it seems like we're together again. I wonder if it seems that way to them, too.
I forgot to ask Xion about the pictures in my head again... It was the same kid in red. Who is he? What does he have to do with me?"
DAY 224: WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO HER? -
"I think something's wrong with Xion. Is she not feeling well again?
Axel said we should all go to the beach next time we get a vacation. I think he senses something is wrong, too. That's why he suggested the beach---to make her feel better."
DAY 225: SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG -
"Okay, now I'm really worried about Xion. I told Axel, but all he said was that she'll get through it.
He knows something is wrong. I bet he's just telling me that to put my mind at ease. Well, it's not working."
DAY 255: NOW AXEL'S ACTING WEIRD -
"I had ice cream with Axel after work today, but Xion didn't show.
Axel said she got sent on an important mission, but he wouldn't look at me when he said it. I've been wondering what's wrong with Xion all this time, but now that I stop and think about it, Axel's not himself either."
DAY 257: HE'S AVOIDING ME -
"I want to talk to Axel about Xion, but I can't seem to get ten seconds with the guy.
What am I supposed to do? I can't believe he's avoiding me. We're supposed to be friends."
DAY 298: SOME OTHER WAY -
"I don't believe it. Axel attacked Xion. There had to have been some other way.
I know she's acting weird, but I hardly recognize Axel these days either. What's going through their heads? I feel so left out."
DAY 300: NO WORDS -
"For the first time in a while, the three of us met up on the clock tower. None of us really knew what to say.
We used to talk each other's ears off, but I guess those days are gone.
So much has happened lately that I've been forgetting to write about those pictures in my head. Now it happens even when I'm not on missions. More often, too.
They even show up in my dreams. Xion told me she has dreams, too. Is all of this connected?"
DAY 301: MY DREAM -
"I dream all the time now, but I don't sleep well. I wake up tired every day. I guess that makes them nightmares, not dreams.
Xion and Axel don't come to the clock tower anymore. I thought maybe if I got everything off my chest with them, I might stop having the nightmares...but so much for testing that theory."
DAY 322: ANOTHER DREAM -
"I had another dream. My head feels heavy.
I want to have ice cream with Xion and Axel again."
DAY 352: US AND THE SUNSET -
"Me and Xion and Axel had ice cream. The sunset was beautiful.
I don't have to write anything else down, because I'll never forget this day."
DAY 353: BROKEN TRUST -
"Axel let Xion leave the Organization. Like he wanted her to go.
She's a puppet? A mirror that reflects me? He's talking nonsense. I can't trust him anymore."
DAY 357: THREE AGAIN? -
"I'm going to set Kingdom Hearts free and find my way to Sora. I'm going to get Xion back. The three of us will have ice cream together again--- I know it."